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  UM: You there, Deltadawn?

  Alex sighed, suddenly feeling guilty. His friend had waited such a long time to be able to be honest with his Master and had finally done it and was about to get what he needed. Alex should be over the moon, happy for him and helping his friend celebrate, not sitting here feeling sorry for himself. He began to type.

  Deltadawn: I’m here, UM. I was just... I envy whoever you and your Master find. I’m so happy for you, but at the same time…

  UM: I know, my friend. I’m sorry. I don’t want my good fortune to hurt you.

  Deltadawn: NO! You’re not. You have every right to be happy and want to scream it to the world. I am so, so happy for you. Thrilled. Really. You know I am. I just wish I could find that too, but it’s not in the cards for me.

  UM: You don’t know that. I’ve felt the same way for over a year and a half now, but look what’s happened. I think the time will come for you when it’s right. I just know it. I only hope when the time comes that your men will know the true gift, treasure, you are. So tell me, sweet thing, what new fantasies have you concocted in your head? Either book or personal? Both?

  Alex laughed.

  Deltadawn: Having trouble with my book, and as I sit here staring at the blank page, I think... I thought…

  UM: What? Tell me. You know you will eventually.

  Deltadawn: I want... oh hell, this isn’t easy just owning up to it. I thought about being triple stuffed, and then a large cock shoved down my throat. The idea has me so damn horny and now feeling even emptier than before. Then I thought, to have a Master who would force me to please another, a friend maybe, because it was his way of forcing some deep need, to prove to me that he owned me fully and could do what he wanted to me.

  UM: So you would want to be shared?

  Deltadawn: No! Yes. No. Yes, but only if my Master deems it, and not like being shared around as a party gift. To have someone fuck me, hard, using me, giving my Master joy in watching it, so that afterward he will then take me, fill me, hard, showing the other man who I truly belong to. Or maybe I can belong to them both, like with you and your Master looking for a third. Maybe I can find two Dominant men to control me. I don’t know where it came from, but I find that the more I think about it, the more I crave it. I know, there’s something wrong with me. My desires are too dark.

  Alex was suddenly filled with guilt and shame. Tears sprang to the backs of his eyes and his heart hurt.

  UM: NO! There is nothing wrong with you. It is something you need, deep down inside, for your own reasons, and I hope you find a Master who will fulfill all of your desires. But I do want to get something straight. You mentioned how you would love to submit to two or more Masters at once, but how rare that would be, yet you want to be shared, so I am assuming that means you want to be a pet or boy like me and my Master are looking for? For me to finally Master over someone's body, knowing he is willing to do anything for me as my Master watches, would be so damn hot. To know that the two of us can have a boy to share at times who will know we own his heart, his soul, his true submission, just as he will own us, now that is... damn. Baby, I’m hard as a rock right now just thinking about it.

  Deltadawn: That does sound so perfect.

  UM: Yeah it does. I think if we find the right man to make a trio, we will both finally be fulfilled. Not that we’re not happy with our relationship, or that we don’t love each other, but I truly think the right third will bring us even closer together. Make us stronger, not weaker.

  Deltadawn: I have to agree. I think it will too. I mean, I don’t know your Master, but just from talking to you I feel like I know him. And knowing how much you feel like you’re missing something, if he’s on board, then I say go for it.

  UM: Thanks, you’re a good friend, Deltadawn. And I think you should go for it too. Don’t settle. Start looking for the right Master, or Masters for you, and when you find them, let the happiness in and embrace it.

  Deltadawn: So, I’m not a freak for wanting to be mastered by two?

  UM: You know what I always say, as long as all the parties involved are consenting adults and on the same page, then there’s nothing wrong with what you want, what you desire, or what you need. As a submissive, you know what you need. The craving is more than a want. It is a need, like food and air. Something so deep you just can’t live without it. So, I say if it is something that you truly need, and it’s not just one of your many sexy-as-hell fantasies for a book, but truly you, then don’t settle for less.

  Alex smiled. He knew he could always count on UM to get him. To understand. It was most likely because the man was both a Dom and a sub. His submissive side understood Alex’s needs and his Dominant side could help ease all of Alex’s stress over it. UM was a perfect friend for him. He could never confess all of this to any of his friends, even though he knew he could trust them, and he would die for any of them like they would for him, but some things he just couldn’t tell them. Especially Bo. Bo was a delta who was probably the biggest player of their pack, but he liked to fuck, not be fucked. Sure he had offered his ass to a few, but Bo always seemed so sad afterward. Unfulfilled. Bo was nothing like him, and telling his friend how much he craved to submit, well, Bo would never understand.

  Deltadawn: Thank you, UM. I needed to hear that. Now I don’t feel so ashamed and maybe I can actually get back to this book. Lol.

  UM: Anytime and you know it. I am always here for you. So, tell me about this book you’re working on. Need any hot ideas for some of those delicious sex scenes you write?

  After that Alex and UM went into what he was thinking of working on and where he wanted to go with it. He had spent over an hour hashing out his storyline to his friend, laughing and having a good time. By the time they had ended the chat, Alex was feeling much better and returned to the blinking cursor and blank page. He put his fingers to the keys and began typing. As the vision of the scene filled his head, he tried to capture it on the paper. With UM’s help, this one might just be the hottest book ever. Alex smiled brightly as he typed.

  CHAPTER 2

  A year and a half later

  UM: So, any hot plans for this weekend?

  Deltadawn: Um... well... Lol. The thing is, I was invited to an orgy. Can you believe it? I really want to go, of course, but something inside me is telling me to stay away. I don’t know what to do.

  UM: An orgy? Well shit. I would say lucky you, but always listen to your gut, DD. If something is telling you to say clear, then maybe you should.

  Deltadawn: It’s not like it’s an S&M rager orgy or anything. These guys can be a rowdy bunch, but I know almost all of them. I know that none of them will hurt me, but still, something is telling me to maybe stay home that night.

  UM: Well, you know what’s best for you, and only you can decide, but I will say either listen to the doubt on this one, or if you can’t, because I know how deep your need runs, then promise me you won’t go alone. Take a friend you trust to have your back.

  :Deltadawn: Awwww, you’re so good to me. Too bad we don’t live closer. I would so do you. Lol.

  UM: Smartass. But I do have to agree, too bad we aren’t closer.

  Deltadawn: Do I get a hint of melancholy in those typed words?

  UM: Maybe

  Deltadawn: Okay. Spill.

  UM: Master and I tried out another boy last week. It was just so wrong.

  Deltadawn: On no, I’m sorry, UM. How many is this now? And what happened this time?

  UM: Same as always, they want my Master and not me. Oh, they don’t mind me submitting to him too, but they don’t take my dominance seriously. Or they try to take my Master away from me. Try to convince him that they will be able to take care of his every need instead of my needing someone else in the relationship. They try to convince him that it’s because I’m confused, and Master needs a real submissive man, not a wannabe like me.

  Deltadawn: NO! (gasp) Oh those little fuckers. They’re trying to be sneaky little bastards. They just can’t
handle two virile men. They don’t know the first thing about pleasing more than one man at a time. Idiots. They’re just afraid of revealing their own shortcomings and inexperience. (huff)

  UM: Lol. Are you rolling your eyes and crossing your arms over your chest in a huff?

  Deltadawn: Yes.

  UM: I knew it. You’re so adorable. Even if I can’t see your face, I know you’re being adorable. Thank you for understanding and getting angry for me. I appreciate your friendship, DD.

  Deltadawn: Always. Hey, don’t give up. I know your right third is out there somewhere. I have faith he will find his way to you. So, what does your delicious Master have to say about all of this?

  UM: He agrees with everything you just said. He has said similar, but it’s getting a bit disheartening. He’s been great and very supportive. He really is the perfect man for me and I love him with all that I am, and I know he feels the same for me. Yet, now that we’ve started this journey, and though it’s something we both really want, I can see it’s affecting him just as much. I think he may be struggling with maybe telling me, even as much as he wants this too, that maybe we should let it go, or maybe take a break from finding our boy. Maybe he’s right.

  Deltadawn: I hate to admit it, but maybe he is? Not that either of you should stop wanting to find your boy. Just take a breather from it and refocus on the two of you for a while. Make sure your link is still strong and all these twinks haven’t weakened that even a little. Then, maybe because you’re not looking for him, he’ll fall into your lap. I’ve heard that’s a thing. You know, someone gives up on men completely, because they are tired of all the games, bullshit, and troubles we know men bring to a relationship, and then, bam, they find the one. Maybe it can happen for you and your Master as well.

  UM: That’s not such a bad idea, I guess. Honestly I felt a little heartbroken when Master said it, but the way you put it makes sense. Maybe you’re right and we need to focus on us for a while, then try again. I refuse to lose him in the process of finding our boy. As much as I am not completely fulfilled, I love him more now than I did when we started this, and I just can’t walk away from him like I thought I could over a year ago.

  Deltadawn: It can’t hurt to talk it over and try it. Again, no one says you have to give up on the dream, just take a vacation from it.

  UM: (I’m smiling at you) You’re pretty smart. Thanks.

  Deltadawn: It’s what I’m here for. You’re my friend, it’s what we do.

  UM: I know and I thank you. So tell me, any more fantasies? Deep, dark desires? Lol.

  Deltadawn: Oh, don’t get me started. A friend of mine showed me this fucking machine! Did you know they even had those? I mean, holy crap on a cracker. It’s a machine that you can attach a dildo to, then get on your hands and knees in front of it, turn it on and the damn thing fucks you. It even has speeds and depth controls!

  UM: Lol. Yes, I know about them. My Master uses one on me whenever I’m naughty. It’s a punishment. Well, so he thinks. Okay, so it is. It feels amazing, but after a while, when he straps me to it for too long, it’s just frustrating as hell. He usually doubles it up with a cock cage so I can’t come. It’s beautiful torture.

  Deltadawn: OMFG! Now you have me so turned on to try it. Ugh! My friend says they even have one that you hook the dildo up to a power drill. A freaking power drill and there are different size attachments to fill your darkest needs. Sound delicious, right? Although, kind of scary if the person wielding the thing doesn’t know what he’s doing. I would have to say that you would really have to trust someone to do that to you.

  UM: I couldn’t agree more. I never heard of the drill one, but now I am curious. I’ll have to check that out. So, is that your latest fantasy? You want to try one of those machines?

  Deltadawn: Hell, yes! I can’t find me a boyfriend or Master so... hey, don’t judge.

  UM: Lol. Never.

  Deltadawn: I know. Thanks. Sorry, but I gotta go. Friend just showed up. He looks like he’s about to wig out about something. He went to a meeting yesterday and got snowed in overnight. I have no idea why he looks so freaked, but I think I need to find out. I’ll talk to you soon, and hey, good luck with the vacation, or the continued search for your perfect boy.

  UM: Yes, go. Help your friend. And I’ll keep you posted. If you decide to go to that orgy, please look after yourself, and be careful.

  Deltadawn: I will. Thanks. (kiss emoji, wink emoji)

  Alex sighed and logged off, then turned to face his friend, Bo. “So, what happened? You look like you saw a ghost or something.”

  Bo paced the floor, his eyes darting around the room erratically as he rubbed the back of his neck. “What? Huh? Oh, no. No ghost. Just... Shit, man, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I feel like my skin is too tight for my body and I just want to rip it off. And my wolf. It’s going crazy inside me. It’s raging to come out and run after... run…”

  Alex knew Bo wanted to say more, but could see he wasn’t ready. Whatever happened to his friend during that meeting with the beta from the Heart pack was freaking him out. Did the beta try something that Bo didn’t want? No, that couldn’t be it. Bo would want whatever the man had to dish out, unless of course that meant Bo had to fully submit. As much as Bo told him he was attracted to the man and wanted to bend over for him every time the two were in the same room, there was no way Bo would bend that far and give himself to the beta as a sub.

  “So, then what happened to make you look like you’re about to freak out and throw up at the same time?”

  Bo stopped his pacing and dropped down onto the nearby sofa. “I... just wanted to get back last night, you know? Then, that storm came and snowed us in for the night, and you know how I said I was really attracted to Jag? Yeah, well, it turns out he wanted to fuck me too.”

  Alex sat forward, his interest piqued. Not only did deltas love to have sex, they always loved to talk about it and share their exploits with others. This was going to be a good story. “So, did you?”

  Bo looked at him like he had three heads. “Duh. Of course we fucked. He was fucking hot as hell too, but... I don’t know. There was just something... I don’t even know what it is. There’s something about the guy that just... makes me want to run in the other direction. This morning when I saw I could leave, I got dressed and got the hell out of there.”

  “You didn’t even say goodbye? Shit, you must have really wanted to run.”

  Bo made a face. “Like we stick around with any hookup we have. You fuck, you get your rocks off, and you move on. That’s all I did. Same old same old.” Bo stood and thrust his hands in the front pockets of his jeans.

  Alex knew Bo was holding something back, but he wouldn’t press it. His friend would talk when he was ready and not before. “So, then what can I do for you if you didn’t come here to brag about fucking the beta?” He was trying to change the conversation and in turn maybe help his friend change the direction his mind was swirling, even if he didn’t realize he was doing it.

  “Oh, um... I just sent a package of new toys over to Marlo to try, and I know you said that you could use some extra cash this month, so I was wondering if you wanted me to send over a box for you of things to test. I have this new fleshlight design I was working on and the prototype just arrived yesterday. I’ll head back and make sure it’s functioning properly, but if you want to give it a test drive, I can really use the input.”

  Alex’s cock hardened just thinking about it. He loved being a guinea pig to Bo’s sex toy designs. His friend really did make the best adult toys around. Bo had a wicked mind when it came to creating things to bring the most pleasure to people, and Alex had heard that some of his customized pieces, like furniture he specially made at the request of a client, were some of the most sought after pieces of BDSM gear in the country.

  “Shit, yes! I would love to test it out. And, yeah, I can really use a little extra cash this month. My snowmobile needs work and with Caleb no longer here to fix it, I’ll nee
d to pay top price probably.”

  Bo’s brows dropped low in a frown. “Jude said Raiden was taking over the shop for Caleb. He’s a pretty decent guy and doesn’t charge too much.”

  “Oh, I know. It’s just that Caleb always gave me time to pay things off when I needed. I can’t ask that of Raiden, we don’t even know each other. So, yeah, I could use the extra money right now.”

  “How's the latest book coming?” Bo asked.

  Alex sat up straighter and smiled. “Great. The gay romance I just put out under my pen name is doing some pretty good sales, and the heavier pornish BDSM one I just finished is in editing. My main buyer down in New York says his members can’t get enough of them. He wants me to keep writing them and sending them his way. He says the subs in the club go crazy over them.”

  Bo laughed. “Well that’s great, Alex. I’m so proud of you. You write those under another pen name, right?”

  “Yeah. I’m not sure my erotic romance readers can handle the darker books, or even want to read them, and I don’t want to lose my readers. They’re awesome.”

  “Well, you just do you and be happy. I gotta go talk to Dell about the meeting, then head home. I’ll have that box sent over later,” Bo said as he headed to the door, then stopped and turned, giving Alex an evil smirk. “Oh, and I’ll include some of my new extra-long, extra wide dildos and a set of anal beads for you. I know how much of a size queen you are.” Bo chuckled as he walked out, letting the door close behind him.

  A shiver of desire raced through Alex at the prospect of trying out the extra-large dildos. Yes, he would admit it, he was indeed a size queen. He smiled as he thought of all the delicious toys Bo would be sending over, and how he would spend the night locked in his house, trying some of them out. Bo had a few of the pack members as testers for his crafts, and once you were done with them, all you had to do was fill out a questionnaire, then he would talk it over with you and take notes. Bo then paid for each questionnaire completed. It was great extra money and Alex couldn’t wait to start.